Happy spring! This week I’ve felt my own bit of rebirth. I’ve had some realizations that will help me move forward. The biggest revelation is that, while I miss my husband, I don’t feel as lonely as I did in the marriage. For a long time I felt like I was last on his priority list, if I was there at all. I felt disconnected from him. I felt like we were roommates not partners. I certainly shared these feelings with X. He always dismissed me. Then he left.
So, this week I realized, I do like spending time with myself. I feel confident in my own space. I can make choices for the health of my animals. I am starting to do training games with my dog to build a better relationship with him and improve his behavior out in the world. I want to go do things with him and explore with him. I’m genuinely starting to like myself in a way I haven’t felt for a long, long time. It makes me feel optimistic about the growth yet to come. Welcome, Spring!